forcing myself to keep it up!
2008/04/14 12:10:29 ZnApPy
Yerh that's much about it, keeping up the fight me vs the real life, ow fawk Im feeling so Emo, Znap is opening himself to rest of the world!..but maybe it's a good thing! What's best with this blog is that people are reading what Im writing. It makes me a bit happy!

Everything is going well lately on the UT scene. My clan Orgasmic Energy is doing really well even though we are in too low divs on some cups. The guys are keeping up the good work etc. I've been thinking several of time to just quit the games UT2k4 and UT3 but that would be like running away and the guys would probably be disappointed.
Since Im soon 19 years old, yeh well about 2 days actually,..Im soon moving away hopefully from this shit village with shit ADSL that gives me delaytime and I dont have to share it with my brother anymore.

Very soon my school ends. I gotta search for a good education today and tomorrow. I was thinking about being something like IT-consultant or maybe Programmer. I dunno if it's a good plan, but I really hope it is...but still. Im not sure what to do with life...gotta keep up the fight vs the real world tbh.
I dont even know if Im with the right girl for me anymore, or if I should answer my ex when she says things like "I miss talking to you!". Fuck it.
I need a change, maybe I'll taking a trip to japan or something..that would be pretty kickass. Just me, my own dojo, my kickass training and healthy living without a PC. That would be something to be honest. What a dream. :)


Mwaaah this is just me knocking myself out with some txt, thnx for ur reading

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Posted: 2008/04/14 - 12:38

Well, hi :P.. First of all I like the posters in your room, I was also into Martial Arts a lot ;).. But where's the point about your blog? If you can afford it taking free time, going to Japan and so on would definately be great, but can you speak Japanese? I think you'll have a hard time there (at least making up your own dojo) if you can't.. The thing with you girlfriend, well, i got my very own opinion about this topic: You are young, enjoy your life and give a fuck about relationships (propably lots of you guys will see it differently ;))... Last but not least, educationwise, if you like programming and stuff you should go for it, but keep it mind: are you happy with sitting few ours in front of the PC with you and your code? Wouldn't be my thing ;)..

Btw. at the moment I'm also making my degrees and I'm really looking forward to the future (moving out, knowing some new people and so on..). I'll study Project Engineering - International Technichal Management here: click me.

Posted: 2008/04/14 - 13:22

im more or less in same position...... school will end pretty soon and i still dont know what i shall do with my life. my school is focused on graphic design and art. i think ill go forward in that area, even if i dont really want to become a graphic designer in traditional way.

japan? never..... far too much stress :P
i would prefer to GO...... just to go.... pack my things, and walk through europe. checkin some southern countries just by going. it always comes to my mind how great it has to be to walk down straight to the southern parts of this beautifull continent. maybe im a totally stupid dreamer. take it how u want..... i love this illusion.

btw:....well, the only prob: travelling on that way takes pretty much time........ hahahahhaha aaaaaaah, wtf......

Posted: 2008/04/14 - 14:39

yo znappy, im in a very similar position mate....I'm 19, I've just dropped out of uni (twice coughcough) and I'm kinda postponing thinking about what im doing with my life by living with my student mates and working from home, so im basically still a student. And then next year I am taking a trip to Japan just for a change to my lifestyle really (taking lessons atm)...maybe we should talk about that trip? I've kinda decided that this and next year is my years of oppurtunity, so im gonna try and do as much as possible, hopefully going to Austria for UAF next month, some festivals here over summer, spain in august and possibly working in prague for 3 months at the end of summer...I dunno what the fuck im gonna do after that, i wanna be with my mates, but they are all spread out coz of uni and who knows what they are gonna do afterwards. this is why i dont wanna get something permanent, i wanna wait and see what my mates do. anyways good luck with it all mate :)

Posted: 2008/04/14 - 18:09

Hello there,

What is good on you is that you at least know and think about yourself. It will keep you alive and going ahead!
One thing I wanted to tell you is that if you want to quit games you are playing you should not do it only because someone tells you it is bad thing or something like that. It is your hobby and you should not stop doing it since it is entertaining you. Trust me, you will stop when you are ready for it. There is nothing bad about that.
As for the girls imo you are too young to think about "is it the right girl for me...". All the experiences you got or you will get are great so date with girls, learn how to deal with women, you know what else :), etc. Dont think about your relationship, once the girl is the right one, you will feel it!

Keep it up :)

Posted: 2008/04/14 - 18:43

lmao tell me bout it man my best friends girlfriend fancies me and keeps asking me to go on dates LMAO, i dont know what to do :D:D:D:D

i feel quite emo atm 2 with college and everything, sucks!

just think of a happy place and close your eyes, it works.

Posted: 2008/04/14 - 18:54

Yeh just do what I do when you feel down: Watch a fun movie, watch some funny tv, listen to awesome music, go game, or go out clubbin'

Posted: 2008/04/14 - 19:20

I usualy go boxing :)
the best ever! Or just jogging listening to music...

Posted: 2008/04/14 - 20:36

Always relax and do not take things too serious, there is enough time to panic.

Posted: 2008/04/14 - 21:00

Or just jogging listening to music... that works yeh

Posted: 2008/04/14 - 21:38

ill join u for JAPAN!

Posted: 2008/04/14 - 22:07

sounds like we got 3 of us on this trip!

Posted: 2008/04/14 - 22:42


Posted: 2008/04/14 - 22:47

damn if all of u will go to japan, ill follow u for sure


Posted: 2008/04/14 - 22:51

this is really positive and Im grateful that people are taking this seriously :)
feels great to know that you are not alone about thoughts like these

Today I tried to search for good educations and I sent away a couple of "interesst announcements" by mail to educations.., my dad will try help me out tomorrow and give me some tips with other educations. The thing is that...I dont think I can live up to what he is today..It feels like Im the shame in the family I wont become that succeful. :/

If I havn't made up my mind this summer and I dont accept any education when I got answers this summer I probably have to work or something I guess.
and Im unsure about what to do about the both's annoying Imo..sometimes I feel like I wanna be all by myself...but it will fucking break my gf down..gotta feel guilty. :/

vYd!, s9, hypno, vulva .....seriously take me to JAPAN! :o I beg u

Posted: 2008/04/14 - 23:03

Posted: 2008/04/15 - 00:34

hmm "take you" implies we would be paying! nah you can come to japan with me, going early next year sumtime. i aint got studies etc to worry about so im very flexible about when im going.

Grats on making an effort with search for unis/colleges etc, its a start at least!

Posted: 2008/04/15 - 09:42

Posted: 2008/04/14 - 22:47

damn if all of u will go to japan, ill follow u for sure

Posted: 2008/04/14 - 22:07

sounds like we got 3 of us on this trip!


Posted: 2008/04/14 - 22:42


make that 5 :D I really want to go to japan this or next year! Visit the Kodakan dojo etc! w00t

Posted: 2008/04/15 - 11:15


Posted: 2008/04/15 - 12:37

Seriously, every time I read the blog title... *cough*

Posted: 2008/04/15 - 13:09

7 !!

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